the little talk in my heart

wa today woke up damn late sia haha 12pm must be due to me sleeping at 330am last night HAHA because of the party which was quite fun haah with all the musical chairs and stuff!!
today was one sleepy day again...i ate lunch and fell asleep again! haha
when i woke up it was already like 330pm? steady!
haha then my dad nag as usual...tolerance training sia haha but i know he is worried about me...

today was like nothing much, well i cleared up my table as i try to prepare myself for a fresh start in my studies haha...
oh wells sometime i do cleaning when im like sian or nothing to do...heh...i really like things clean and arranged properly...lol
now that PW is officially OVER, there is nothing much left to do actually HAHA
oh wells as i sat at my table i think back of the times i spent with my pw group...
the days daphne bullied and abused me, the days cressa was crying for subway cookies, the days i teased dhanya for her nose, dap for her lips haha...oh wells these days of laughter are officially gone...ha...i will always remember those days...

i have changed much since i have went to church...
last time when i was havent went to church, i must say i was quite a calculative person, there was a sense of selfishness, plus i had no respect for anyone, i couldnt forgive someone quite easily, plus i use to hold hatred, sometimes i get angry real easily...
i know i have these bad points and i really tried to find a way to change my personality...
therefore, i set certain 'rules' for myself
1) having no hate
2) no regrets
3) try to forgive people around you as Christ forgive us for our sins
after i went to church, i find that i actually changed alot...i changed for the better.
there is sometimes this voice in my heart which ask me to do the right things...
im am seriously not sure if that is my conscience or that is God telling me to do the right things...
one thing is for sure, the voice wasnt very apparent till i got to church and ask God to enter my life...heh...
for example, when i walk around and i see trash on the ground, i would normally ignore it...
but then now there is this voice in me which tell me to pick it up...
the first time i questioned myself that the rubbish is not mine, plus its a tissue, there might be someone's sneeze on it...
hence i just ignored it as forced myself to walk pass it...
however as i did so, there was this argument inside of me...it grew stronger as i take a step away from it...finally i decided to pick it up...ha
though this is a small case, the voice always comes up...ha...
pastor once said: the argument between the old man and the new man...so true:))
after knowing God more, i became more secured in a way that
as long as i know what im doing and that what im doing is right and what God wants, what others actually think is actually not that important anymore...yupps
haha okays thats all byebye!~

Lord i thank You for everything!