be serious

i have to be serious when i do things!
nice song: why by secondhand serenade...

last night gabriel called me...
what can i say? i cant promise anything...so i try to...
i could answer everything honestly...thats so much i could do...
but why? why ask me when i dont know? why ask me when im not ready?
the feelings are ever-changing...i couldnt give you an accurate answer...really...
i like things simple...complex things makes me go crazy...
you dont know what pressure you are putting me under man...

oh wells today training was special!
its started at 745am! super early
did layup drills, some PT...
later i learnt new stuff...something to do with starting the ball up...
at the end of the training there was a 2.4km run...quite a surprize...12 mins
felt tired already so decided to pace someone instead...it helps...
the run is satisfying though...

mr lim then gave us a talk before we took a break
selection for the training camp will be aft the break...
selection for the training camp = selection for team = i wont go inside...guaranteed 100%
oh well not that im sad, im not...was not expecting it anyway...i know where i stand...
however so, im glad...
im glad to have learnt things...
im glad to have improved in gameplay...
im glad that i made new friends...
im glad to be able to train alongside with hongxi...
im glad im exposed to bball more...
im glad i improved physically...
im glad my endurance improved...
im glad to be able to organise matches...
im glad as i think i became more disciplined...
im glad for everything...the coach...mr lim...
the times of happiness, the times of frustration, the tough times...
all this will be a part of me forever...and...im glad...:))))) cheeers!
as for aj team...well...now i know what it all means...at first i didnt...
go kick some ass!!! wooooo!

after training...my stomach very pain...
i think because of the cold water...
after the run, your body temperature is high, intestines expands, peristalsis goes faster...
hence the cold water, does sudden contraction?
diao...must be! ar...im so smart:)

ate in the market with bball people...
the grass jelly rocks so much...
then hongxi and i blah blah blah blah
till it was time to go home:)
wa when i went home...
i didnt press the button for my stop cause i lazy and i thought people would press...
omg no one did! so yea the bus just zoomed pass...
i looked at the stop as it pass me...damn...what was i thinking?
punishment? walk more lor...ZzZ leg are there for a reason right? #$%^& GAR!~

lets look forward now...
i have to focus on the many aspects in life...
i think i have to be more serious about things i do...cannot keep having the play play kind of attitude for everything...
so now...i have to move...seriously...and fast...
the key is to focus...this key is rare i suppose...

i have been thinking about so many things...
alot of stuff just keep running...
thought through and through...
what do i seriously want?
ARRRGG! i just want to shout...
i wanna run on and on...
life is a joke sometimes...its not funny though...

the break is there for a reason...
going to pulau ubin tmr...then church...
looking forward to the peaceful environment...

okays lets go...gotta rock the world tonight...

Lord i thank You for everything!