dont look back

dont look back...
well when people say this, can they actually do it?
i remembered church once said that we should always look forward to our vision, our future...
i disagree...
i feel that looking back sometimes is necessary...
the memories, the mistakes, the happiness back then, the feelings, the emotions, the people...
sometimes you look back and realise what you actually want...
sometimes you look back and realise what you can improve on...
you look back and realise lots of stuff, lots of memories pour right back...
you feel sad, yet you cant reverse time...
you feel happy, you laugh stupidly to yourself...
heh...memories...painful yet its part of life...
you feel you have changed...you want to go back...but you cant
the promises you made...looking back...it all has expired...
i remember i once said that i would fulfil all my promises...but looking back...did i?
i failed...but i tried my best...some promises just expires when the situation changes...
what i want to say is that...the words...in the book...will always hold valid...
i looked backed and remember everything...heh
my heart clenches...why?

guys dont cry...
guys should not cry no matter what...
heh...i think most guys do cry...-.-
its just that...they dont do it in front of gals...becos of ego...
maybe its more appropriate to say that guys dont cry becos of pain...they cry when they are emotionally hurt...
holding back tears...one important skill heh...
as the music plays...the mood gets low...
the memories just flash pass like blades cutting the heart...
sometimes...its worse then death...you get cut but u dont die...
main reason? i suppose its love...
could we die for love?
the tears just flow...and flow and flow...silently...

HAHA...did i make anyone cry? XD i trying to write prolly...lol
okays back to todays stuff!

wa seh wake up 6...fell asleep...wake up 8...time to prepare for training...
reached late! gar...oh well lucky they havent started the warm up...
so i joined them for the 4 round warm up...i love taking the back...it allows you to take your time to admire the sky!
today we did more defence training...lay up was good!
when training ended...played with yanming, he cao zai!
i seat alone at the mph and cooled down...heh...i feel good...
me and hongxi then ate at the market...with two other bball guys...
at first they ate so fast...so in order to wait for us they bought more food...i didnt noe they bought to wait for us...
so when we ate finish i say we leave first...-.-
oh man...only then i realised i got NO manners...ZzZ heh...
hongxi say i shouldnt think too much of it...as people wouldnt take it to heart...
but it aint that easy you noe...oh wells no choice...
later played pool with hongxi and aloy! fun!
HAHA yay i finally win hongxi le!!! aloy improved alot due to MY teaching haha...yao bai ben da ye! -.- just kiddin' you learn fast and i know you can do it with a lil more prac!
after that went aloy house then go play bball le...
today was okay bahz...:))))
then went home...
daphne just send me a 白痴 message...ZzZ
next plane home, if u had a bad day...wooooo!

the night sky...you dont know how much...

Lord i thank You for everything!